Fast Update

2 days smoke free.

Got plenty of "running up and downstairs at school" exercise today. :)

Good night internet.

Reflections on acting and image

So part of this blog is not only to talk about my hobby publishing company (Zenith Comics), or to just rant about the world around me and things that happen, but to also talk about acting and such.

First off I am fat.

No two ways to say it, at 450lbs (6'3") I am what they term morbidly obese. Now that aside, I have lost around 60lbs in the past year and am continuing to work towards my goal of about 250lbs.

What does this have to do with acting? Sadly everything.

It is are that a fat man is allowed to play a character that is just a lawyer, or a doctor or a anything that isn't identified by the term "fat" or some other size premarker. It does happen, but again it is rare.

This comes from a body obsessed culture that has pretty much done everything in its power to remove real people from our eyes on screen and replace them with waifs and sterotypes.

Guess which one I am?

Hmmm... this may turn into a rant.

Either way the reality is that I am a good actor, of that I have no doubt, but until my weight is considerably lower, unless the part calls for a fat lawyer, doctor (etc...) there will be very little chance I will have a shot at it.

Sure it has happened before (playing on Eureka was one of those moments for me) but they are few and far between.

So really it is up to me, no one else, I can't expect Hollywood to change their ways just cause I wanna be taken seriously as an actor. That would be a bit Pollyanna of me and I prefer to be a little more of a bitter curmudgeon than that.

How will this manifest? That remains to be seen. A video blog maybe? Monthly weigh ins here for your scrutiny? A meal log? Something I haven't thought of yet?

I don't know yet, but if you have an idea please share.

Cheers!